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vanished

Friday, February 10th, 2017

Not a day, not a dime,
Not a moment is returned
Nice of me, good of you
Nice of us to think about it
Good of them, nice of it
Good enough to kind of cloud it
Not a word, not a thought
Not a thing done about it

I vanished Friday and appeared on Sunday
Only to regain my strength and do it again
I vanished Friday and appeared on Sunday
Only to regain my strength and do it again

Didn’t stay, didn’t try,
Got ugly and terse
Nice of me, good of you
To break it down first
Righteousness ain’t the trip
The trap is concern
Wait around for rewards
That’ll probably hurt

I vanished Friday and appeared on Sunday
Only to regain my strength and do it again
I vanished Friday and appeared on Sunday
Only to regain my strength and do it again, yeah

Yeah
Don’t expect an outpouring of interest for integrity
Don’t expect a praise parade
Let me grapple with the gratitude
Lack of faith on a rainy day, rainy day

I vanished Friday and appeared on Sunday
Only to regain my strength and do it again
I vanished Friday with the best of intentions
Only to regain my strength and do it again

I vanished Friday and appeared on Sunday
Only to regain my strength and do it again
I vanished Friday with the best of intentions
Only to regain my strength and do it again
(And do it again) do it again
(and do it again) and do it again
And do it again

fuck it

Wednesday, January 6th, 2016

I feel good right now, I must be sick
I feel so good right now, must be a trick
No idea how I got here
Last time I checked I was just living in fear

I feel so good right now, yeah good for me
I’m off the grid right now, I’m feeling free
Thinking about myself and all, my wife, my friends,
And their connection and how the world will end

1, 2, 3, 4!
I’m not trying to be right all the time now
I’m not stupid or just a little bit high now
Fuck it, fuck it, fuck it
It’s the oldest but the best advice
Fuck it, fuck it, fuck it
Just like rock & roll & Jesus Christ

(C’mon c’mon) Let’s get all ourselves identified
(C’mon c’mon) Till all the screens are satisfied
(C’mon c’mon) RCMP and MI5
(C’mon c’mon) The CIA, FBI

I feel good right now, walking down the street
I’m pretty vacant now, just hit delete
No idea how I got I got here
Last time I checked I was just living in fear
Thinking about myself and all, my wife, my friends,
And their connections and how the world will end

1, 2, 3, 4!
I’m not trying to be right all the time now
I’m not stupid or a little bit high now
Fuck it, fuck it, fuck it
It’s the oldest but the best advice
Fuck it, fuck it, fuck it
Just like rock & roll & Jesus Christ

(C’mon c’mon) Let’s get all ourselves identified
(C’mon c’mon) Till all the screens are satisfied
(C’mon c’mon) RCMP and MI5
(C’mon c’mon) The CIA, FBI

I feel good right now, I must be sick
I feel so good right now, what day is this?
I feel so good right now, yeah good for me
I’m off the grid right now, I’m feeling free

I feel so good right now, back on the street
I’m pretty vacant now, just hit delete
(C’mon c’mon) Let’s get all ourselves identified
(C’mon c’mon) Till all the screens are satisfied
(C’mon c’mon) RCMP and MI5
(C’mon c’mon) NSA and FBI

I’m not trying to be right all the time now
I’m not stupid or a little bit high now
Fuck it, fuck it, fuck it
It’s the oldest but the best advice
Fuck it, fuck it, fuck it
It’s just like rock & roll & Jesus Christ

I feel so good right now, (Let’s get all ourselves identified)
Down in the street (Till all the screens are satisfied)
I’m pretty vacant now, (RCMP and MI5)
Just hit delete (The CIA and FBI)

I feel so good right now, (Not trying to be right all the time now)
I must be sick (I’m not stupid, just a little bit high now)
Fuck it, fuck it, fuck it
It’s the oldest but the best advice
Fuck it, fuck it, fuck it
It’s just like rock & roll & Jesus Christ

binthiswayforyears

Saturday, October 29th, 2011

I’ve been burned out
I’ve been hated
I’ve been fucked up
And unsophisticated
A little foolish
A little jaded
I ain’t complaining
That karma’s been back-dated

And there’s nobody fading away here
Goddammit, well, it’s been this way for years

It’ll live forever
Just how it goes
Ain’t nothing better
Than mother-fucking rock & roll
It’ll never stop
We’ll never fold
Do yourself a favor
Turn off your radio

And there ain’t nobody fading away here
Goddammit well it’s been this way for years
It’s been this way for years
Goddammit well it’s been this way for years

Goddammit well it’s been this way for years
Goddammit well it’s been this way for years
Goddammit well it’s been this way for years

I’ve been burned out
I’ve been hated
I’ve been fucked up
And unsophisticated
A little foolish
I barely made it
Told me to pay a price
So I fucking paid it

But there’s nobody fading away here
Goddammit well it’s been this way for years
Goddammit well it’s been this way for years
Goddammit well it’s been this way for years
Yes

Goddammit well it’s been this way for years
Goddammit well it’s been this way for years
Goddammit well it’s been this way for years

Goddammit well it’s been this way for years
It’s been this way for years
Goddammit well it’s been this way for years
Goddammit well it’s been this way for years
Goddammit well it’s been this way for years

cubically contained

Saturday, March 8th, 2008

Good for me, for a time
All hell’s cubically contained
Staunched and bottled
Pressed and altered
And at the ready for the reins

The first tiny little shadows
Of my creepy little thoughts
Inhabit all that matters
And I lose by default

And I’ll never promise anything again
I’ll never promise anything again
I’ll never promise anything again

I set a dozen 12-step traps,
They’ve slid by every one
I never catch the little bastards
I really do wish that they’d own up

Those paranoid little fuckers
Take their paranoid little time
And when the mood rolls in
They’re bank-robbin’
And I’m a hostage who will drive

And I’ll never promise anything again
I’ll never promise anything again
I’ll never promise, never promise, never promise
Anything again, anything again
Never promise, never promise
Anything again, anything again
Never promise, anything again

Now I can only do so much
And I will never deviate
I hear myself take a deep breath
And think I must’ve wanted it this way

I remember all those little traps
I could not keep them in place
They were never stationed anywhere
They were terrorized and maimed

So tonight I’ve set a vigil
And my shadow’s all that’s cast
And the iron that’s encased it
Is doing all that one could ask

And I’ll never promise anything again
I’ll never promise anything again
I’ll never promise anything again, anything again
Never promise anything again
Never promise anything again, anything again
Never promise anything again

reframed (every single failure)

Monday, November 19th, 2007

Well I’ll be leaving now, I thank you for the trouble
Your compassion seems to even up the score
Your ability to ridicule has left things at a stand still
And I don’t find it peculiar anymore

I didn’t drive here but I know that I was driven
And I trust that you would know to overcome
Just tick away the precious seconds of this minute
That have left us both alone and fucking numb

I’m amazed that I haven’t caved
And I still have faith in myself today
I’m no stranger to misbehavior
I’ve reframed every single failure

The promises we made weren’t broken but they’re fading
Neither one of us should be guilty or ashamed
It’s just a word I heard and maybe I don’t remember
Somewhere along the line I misbehaved

Yeah, I’m amazed that I haven’t changed
With all the rage in the world today, yeah
I’m no stranger to human nature
I’ve reframed every single failure

Missing pieces that are left out of the story
Painting over all things we didn’t like
It’s got something to do with what makes us all tick
There’s something there that eats us up inside.

I’m amazed that I haven’t caved
And I still have faith in myself today, yeah
I’m no stranger to misbehavior
I’ve reframed every single failure

I’m amazed that I haven’t caved
And I still have faith in myself today
I’m no stranger to misbehavior
Reframed every single failure

Every single failure
Every single failure
Every single failure

fuck you

Saturday, June 2nd, 2007

Circling and spinning around my mind
You sweetly, swiftly shift
Shaking the shakes I’m faking you’re shaking
And you’re quick to steal a kiss
So in a frozen motion I silently scream
You flinch but you won’t back down
You dare me, you try to scare me
But you know I stand my ground

Fuck you
Fuck you
Fuck you
Get over you
Fuck you
Fuck you
I will get over you

Inch by inch I’m closing in
Your eyes have sealed the dawn
Now it’s only a matter of time before you shatter
Try to walk away with pieces that you want
So you seek secrets of my soul
My misery I hope you’ll miss
Cast your hooks, I hope you catch
A glimpse of blinded bliss

Fuck you
Fuck you
I will get over you
Fuck you
Fuck you
I will get over you
Fuck you
Fuck you
I will get over you
Fuck you
Fuck you
I will get over you

Who’s gonna guess it, or believe
Everything’s crossed my mind
So don’t you blink, I’m trying to think
Well everything could unwind
Well you move me, you used to use me
Now it’s time to stand my ground
And if I don’t come back, nothing will collapse
Nothing really ever comes around
So surely I said sorry
If you believe half the things that we’ve done
You must’ve done them too
Cause you know I’m cut in two
Just above the balcony I’m hung from

Fuck you
Fuck you
Fuck you and only you
Fuck you
Fuck you
Yeah you and only you
Fuck you
Fuck you
I will get over you
Fuck you
Yeah you
I will get over you
Fuck you
Just you
You and only you
Fuck you
Yeah you
I will get over you

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