soundtrack of my life

by Keiran Keiran

Jan

little victories

This time
I’ll be sailing
No more bailing boats for me
I’ll be out here on the sea
Just my confidence and me

And I’ll be awful sometimes
Weakened to my knees
But I’ll learn to get by
On the little victories

This time
I’ll have no fear
I’ll be standing strong and tall
I’ll turn my back towards them all

And I’ll be awful sometimes
Weakened to my knees
But I’ll learn to get by
Yeah I’ll learn to get by
On the little victories

And if the world decides to catch up with me
It’s a little victory

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by Keiran Keiran

Dec

Hey, I hear the voice of a preacher from the back room
Calling my name and I follow just to find you
I trace the faith to a broken down television, and put on the weather
And I’ve trained myself to give up on the past ’cause
I froze in time between hearses and caskets
Lost control when I panicked at the acid test
I wanna get better

While my friends were getting high and chasing girls down parkway lines
I was losing my mind because the love, the love, the love, the love, the love
That I gave wasted on a nice face
In a blaze of fear I put a helmet on a helmet
Counting seconds through the night and got carried away

So now I’m standing on the overpass screaming at the cars
“Hey, I wanna get better!”

I didn’t know I was lonely ’til I saw your face
I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better
I didn’t know I was broken ’til I wanted to change
I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better

I go up to my room and there’s girls on the ceiling
Cut out their pictures and I chase that feeling
Of an eighteen year old who didn’t know what loss was
Now I’m a stranger
And I miss the days of a life still permanent
Mourn the years before I got carried away

So now I’m staring at the interstate screaming at myself
“Hey, I wanna get better!”

I didn’t know I was lonely ’til I saw your face
I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better
I didn’t know I was broken ’til i wanted to change
I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better

‘Cause I’m sleeping in the back of a taxi
I’m screaming from my bedroom window
Even if it’s gonna kill me

Woke up this morning early before my family
From this dream where she was trying to show me
How a life can move from the darkness
She said to get better
So I put a bullet where I shoulda put a helmet
And I crash my car ’cause I wanna get carried away

That’s why I’m standing on the overpass screaming at myself
“Hey, I wanna get better!”

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by Keiran Keiran

Dec

playlists and apologies

I threw my phone out of the window tonight
So you couldn’t go and change my mind
What doesn’t kill you can drag you for miles
Til there’s nothing left to recognize

Meet me out at the end of my rope
Won’t you meet me at the end of my rope?

Every song was an anthem that the radio played for us
Every word was poetry rolling off our tongues
We were blooming like flowers, we were bending toward the sun
Now all that’s left of you and me is playlists and apologies
Oh, apologies
Oh

We burned for years; we never could get enough
We had an epic movie trailer love
How could I slip so easy out of your mind?
From your trophy to your alibi

Meet me out at the end of my rope
Won’t you meet me at the end of my rope?

I’m not thinking clear; get myself away from here
Broken hearts and souvenirs
I’m not thinking clear; I’m a mess to you, my dear
Broken hearts, souvenirs
My God, what a way to go

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